Sunday, January 4, 2009

Future Planning

So my husband and I have been talking a lot about having a "little mossman" to chase around the house. Ben has wanted children since the day we were married, and well for me, I have always wanted a family, but my emetophobia fear has taken over. If you've never heard of it, emetophobia is the fear of vomiting. It's a terrible sickness (no pun intended) that trully takes over your life. So just the thought of being pregnant and dealing with nausea and possible vomiting makes me a nervous wreck. But up until about a month ago, I wasn't sure when I would really be ready to start trying to have children. I feel more comfortable with the thought now, and I'm realizing that I'm not getting any younger and I don't want to miss out on one of life's most amazing experiences. And even if I have morning sickness, I pray that it's not terrible. I've already been praying that I don't have to deal with it... But if I do, I have my wonderful husband and family who will be there to help me through things as much as possible. I know I can do this, and I will be able to do this!! My heart melted the other day when Ben sent me a text message saying - "I know I will be an amazing Father..."